Rindu

Assalamualaikum wrbt..
Apa khabar semua?
Harap semuanya sihat, fizikal, emosi dan iman…
Oh lamanya tak melawat dan kemaskini blog ni..
Entri terakhir sebelum kahwin tu..hehe
Bizi no agaknya ya berumahtangga ni…
Hari ni tiba-tiba rasa jari ni rasa rindu nak menari atas keyboard dan update blog ni.
Sebenarnya rasa macam ruginya tak simpan memori dalam bentuk tulisan bila tengok semula entri-entri dulu rasa rindunya…
Rindu pada berbagai-bagai perasaan yang pernah dialami, rindu pada kenangan dulu.. Rindu pada mereka semua..
In shaa Allah aku akan cuba untuk merajinkan diri untuk merakamkan memori dalam blog ni.
Mungkin berkenaan kisah suka duka aku dalam menggali ilmu dalam perjalanan mendapatkan seketul doctor falsafah atau mungkin kisah famili kami yang bakal terima orang baru in shaa Allah atau apa sahaja yang boleh memberikan manfaat kepada diri sendiri, orang lain dan agama.

Sebelum letak noktah untuk entri ni, nak letak satu gambar kahwin kami sempena ulang tahun yang ke-11 bulan..hehe..Bulan depan in shaa Allah dah setahun dah duduk serumah dengan housemate lain jantina ni..hikhik.. dan in shaa Allah akan bertambah lagi housemate baru..heee =).. Alhamdulillah untuk segala nikmat-Mu ya Rabb.

HOMESICK

Luluh hatiku yang sayu
Menatap wajahmu tenang dalam lena
Kasih zahirkan laku
Sedangkan bibirku jauh dari lafaznya

Dan raut tuamu membekas jiwaku
Meredakan rindu mendamaikan kalbu
Tak mungkin kutemu iras sentuhanmu
Biarpun kuredah seluruh dunia
Mencari gantimu

Betapa sukarnya menyusun bicara
Meluahkan rasa menuturkan sayang
Kasih yang terlimpah hanya sekadar
tingkah
Cuma ungkapan kebisuan yang
melindungkan kalimah rahsia

Masih kubiarkan waktu
Melarikan lafaz kasihku padamu

Mengapakah sukar menyusun bicara
Meluahkan rasa menuturkan sayang
Kasih yang terlimpah hanyalah sekadar tingkah
Cumalah ungkapan bisu kalimah rahsia

Apakah yang hilang andai dilisankan
Bait penghargaan penuh kejujuran
Tak mungkin terlihat cinta yang merona
Jika hanya renungan mata yang bersuara
Bukan tutur kata

Tiada lagi ertinya pengucapan
Andai akhir nafas di hujung helaan
Sebelum mata rapat terpejam
Usah biar kehilangan
Menggantikan lafaz yang tersimpan

Kerna Kamu Bintang di HatiKu

Assalamualaikum...

Lame sudah aku x menconteng kat papan blog ni...

Berazam untuk entri2 akan datang menulis ilmu yang berguna kepada pembaca

Tapi hari ini 

 kita warming up dulu la yer..

Di sebabkan bintang pada malam ini sangat cantik..

Saya tujukan lagu ini untuk sesiapa yang rasa dia cantik...

hehehe...

~~terukir di bintang di bintang x mungkin hilang cintaku padaMU~~

Jika engkau minta intan permata tak mungkin ku mampu
Tapi sayangkan ku capai bintang dari langit untukmu
Jika engkau minta satu dunia akan aku cuba
Ku hanya mampu jadi milikmu pastikan kau bahagia

Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi
Seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti
Kan… kamu…

Sayangku
Jangan kau persoalkan siapa di hatiku
Terukir di bintang tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu

p/s : selamat hari lahir abah... terima kasih menjadi ~ abah yang bertanggungjawab, penyayang (walaupun x ditunjukkan...hihi), yang sentiasa menasihatiku (secara tersurat atau tersirat..hiiii), sentiasa memberi tunjuk ajar, sentiasa sabar melayan kerenah anak2nya...selalu menenangkan aku time tibe aku rase nak nanges dalam telefon...yang sentiasa motivasi diriku...dan banyak lagi.. U not the perfect father but the BEST father... U r the BEST...thank you for everything abah...juga hepi besday pada zaid ... clown of the family...hehe...

 p/s lagi....pelik tapi benar : dalam ramai2 org, aku suke org yg look similar to abah... may be ramai org suke org yang kemas, bergaya...tapi aku suka org yang simple n not complicated...tapi x la selekeh kan.....n i know that abah bukan la org yg romantik n i think i'm more attracted to not so romantic person...sebab aku ade mind set kalau org tu ley romantic ngn aku mesti die ley romantic ngn org lain gak..huhu..tp still caring  n gentleman la kan .. n yg plg penting aku suke org cam abah sbb abah paham aku... nasihat die cam air menyerap dalam kepala otak aku n aku bley trime ...sbb aku ni jenis degil gak... haha...so, i tend to admire this kind of person=..the person that .understand me... because i am a 'pelik'girl =P n a secretive person...just some person that i'm trust most  have opportunity sharing story n problem...because it difficult for me to trust people (but, currently iam in the process to trust more people n share more.. but don' t ever break the trust..hu)

well....just some of the specification...hahaha... n the MOOOOST important thing is he should accept my whole family...=)...

Hope n pray...Because future is Allah s.w.t 's secret =D...

He know what is the best for His slave...

Strengthening the bonding~~

   Alhamdulillah....

Family Day kali ke 3 keluarga Hj.Abd Manaf  Alam telah berlangsung dengan jayanya pada minggu lepas bersamaan 14 dan 15 April 2012...

Bersyukur sangat...InsyaAllah dengan adanya family day ni, hubungan persaudaraan ini semakin utuh... 

Yela, bukan senang tau nak kumpul ramai2 ni... time raye pon kadang2 susah nak kumpul kat 1 umah semua ade.. at leat ade family day camni... ley r berkumpul n update cite baru..hehe...

Program bermula dengan piknik kat teluk biru, port dickson... Masing2 bawak makanan dari umah..makan2...mandi2...bergambo2 n pastu check in kat hotel....

malam tu mesyuarat, tapi dimulakan dengan tahlil kat surau hotel n makan malam... 

Esoknya, sukaneka red warrior... Overall sumenye berjalan lancar, cume ade kemalangan kecil pada makcik time sukaneka tu.. InsyaAllah makcik cepat sihat...Aku diberitahu tulang makcik yang patah tu kena masuk plate...hehe... bley x amik CT scan pastu suh raje simulate...hikhik...research2..

Alhamdulillah...semoga program tahun akan datang lebih baik dari tahun2 sebelum ini..Amiin

 

Macam biase....aku ade masalah nak explain panjang2...huhu... tu yang susah sket nak wat result n discussion tu ...hmmmm....

p/s: Sudah cukup sudah Tentang rasa...tema perjalanan aku JB-KL-MLK-PD-JB...
Natural silent...sinusoidal always...

two thousand twelve

Alhamdulillah, pray to Allah..
HE Still give me opportunity to take a breath in this year 2012..

As usual, at the beginning of year, everyone will plan what they want to achieve for this new year..

Before i proceed to the next plan, i want to review back myself...
what i've planned for last year, 2011 and do i fulfill it...
Key Performance Index Aisyah for 2011ok, 2011 determination ..
1. Submit thesis
2. Publish journal
3. IELTS test
4. BTN
5. Phd application

Actually, i failed or in a better word, i'm not successfully achieve that...

plan your work then work your plan...

that quote is the best reflecting myself...

i less effective in managing myself...(T_T)

Therefore, for this 2012...
i want to change my inner perspective first...

i want to BE BETTER person...
Insyaallah, i will GET BETTER life..
then insyaallah i will GIVE BETTER..

TEN ASPECTS OF LIFE that i want to improve

A. JOB

Ok, currently i have 2 job, as a tutor and as a student...

Yes, because i'm not taking my study leave i need to fulfill my responsible for both job..

As a student, i want to submit my thesis then proceed with viva and so on...At the same time, submit my manuscript to suitable journal, insyaallah it will be accepted. Amiin.

As a tutor, other than facilitate laboratory, construct new laboratory for undergraduate, I need to plan my PhD... wish me luck ! (^^,)

B. FINANCIAL

This is one of the importance thing that i want to improve. Because, sometime i not aware with my financial and be a spendthrift person.

Therefore, now i make new regulation for myself

i.  save RM 500 per month for future expenditure

ii. keep RM2/ day everyday for emergency purpose

another source that i can get more money???home tuition maybe....hmmm

C. FAMILY

As a daughter of my lovely emak and abah.... i hope this year, i can spend more time with them as well as with my sibling; angah, hanif, faiz, zaid,hafiz and din... travel to cameron highland maybee...


I want to visit my grandparent at muar more frequent...

Before this, hari raya and wedding day are the only time for me to meet  my cousins and all families gather together.Hopefully, we can meet often and share many more memories.

Insyaallah this flesh and blood relation will be more tighten day by day...

 

D. SURROUNDING

i'm not really understand this aspect, however i assume it as a material aspect or surrounding criteria..

-lab, home, car, 

Ok, what i really want to have now is DSLR NIKON.... i want it... i want it... huuuuu...save your money aisyah...

E. RECREATION    
i love recreation! hehe.. love picnic at desaru, love bowling although my ball tend to go into the drain, love paintball even my left hand have a big bruise and cramp legs.. love traveling...love shopping... love snapping memories....



Next recreation activities that i want to do are mountain/rock climbing,hiking, horse riding, kayaking,backpacking,scuba diving and etc. 

F. SELF DEVELOPMENT / SELF IMPROVEMENT   

There are 3 types of skills that are self-management skills, technical/ work-specific skills and functional/transferable skills 

Ok, for self-management skill that i need to improve including 
i want to be more punctual,wake up early everyday, go early to lab, more focus to every thing i do and etc

In term of work-specific skills, i want to improve my writing, reading,communication, critical thinking,asking question, time management skills and etc.


Functional skills that i already have are driving, swimming, photography, cooking, sewing, baking and etc..I want to improve the skills..

p/s : Alhamdulillah, yesterday i learn 2 more skills, how to make lasagna from su natasha and theory tutorial of dslr camera from afiqah...thanks guys (^^,)             
                              
    
              
G. FRIENDS AND COMMUNITY
I glad to have many friends...From kindergarten until now- However, i have lost contact with most of my childhood friend. Hmm, aimi nazirah, wan mastura and farhana, my best friends in class 1 ikhlas srk sri serdang, zahratu syuhada, nurul shuhada daud, nora basyara, siti nurain, and many more from sk jenderam hilir, nur edayu, ruzita japan, nur azrin, afidah, murni from sk maju jaya...

Alhamdulillah, i still contact my

-secondary schoolmate a.k.a my 1st hostel-mate(ssijb); shaliza, wani rahim, fizanad, izyan salleh, fezlina, and etc...
-some of them that i lost contact : saa'di, dilla mohaideen, adib, ....


my mrsmktmate;syikin A, shikin B, eim, emah, dettol, wani, combi, nurul, dayah, irah, aini, naza... and etc... but we not gather together after spm.. miss u olz guy.. let's make reunion!


-matriculation(kmmmate) - roomate (A2.3.3) : siti, fatimah andabidah - i tried to find abidah and fatimah in facebook but not found it... Miss the moment.... when will we meet again ? hmmm.... My wingmate (wing A)...fana, amy,

tutorial/classmate (f7p4) - my bestfriend, ain and nana already married.. before this we always meet each other in utm... but other guys : fadilah, nadia, nisa, pai, que, ina, laila, hilman, daniel, amir, khai, and etc. Alfatihah to our classmate Qayyum that already pass away. 


-UTM( sepseb) - Deep in my heart, i really miss the moment of go to class..by walking with ju, tasha, yanie, hanah or sometime go together with siti, pia nana, pka.... SEB... just twelve girls including aidil my only best roomate a.k.a askar SEB, gare the genius girl, mahani perempuan melayu terakhir, ju the indonesion song addicted, nana the loud speaker, siti the creative girl, tasha the debater a.k.a confidence icon, pka the most adorable girl that use KBG that time, yanie the decisive girl, pia an organised person, and hanah the gentle girl.

hehe... the title just fun, don't get mad ...heee~

miss u olz guys also the boy and SEP mate... miss to have raya konvoi together...



-PRACTICAL (APSB, HSAJB)
-bud2, azim, abg adi, faizal, damai, en.hanafi, kak chik, kak fiza, kak sida, kak fida, and etc...
Thanks guy teach me many things during practical... Miss all of you


-My exhousemate - no 4 jalan kebangsaan 43, taman universiti
jaja, ecah, k.aida, pia, ayien....
thank guys for the memories... 
Miss that moment.. love u all

Ok.. let go to the current state

my MEDITEGMATE, FKBSKMATE, USRAHMATE,HOUSEMATE i really happy to be with u all now!

H. ROMANTIC

Hehe... this is though part, what actually this aspect mean?...Hmmm...
maybe be more sensitive to surrounding, be more caring... say what inside your heart....o....donno la...yeah i am stick n rigid person, right... need to learn how to be more romantic...hahahah 

I. HEALTH

I want to be healthy person because when not get sick you can save your money, can use your time wisely, can be cheerful, live happily.
Therefore i want to improve my eating style in order to get better health. First thing is i want to eat breakfast everyday( b4 this aku slalu skip breakfast) because studies showed that when we take breakfast :

• A more nutritionally complete diet, higher in nutrients, vitamins and minerals
• Improved concentration and performance in the classroom or the boardroom
• More strength and endurance to engage in physical activity
• Lower cholesterol levels
  

Then, i want finish eating every meal..(hehe..susah tau task ni..=P) and drink water minimum 2 litre everyday.
   

J. SPIRITUAL /FAITH/ RELIGION

Improve my ibadah, i already pray but i want to improve to  pray early every praying time, i already fasting during ramadhan but  i want to add more by fasting at least 1 day per month, i already read alquran but before this not discipline, so i want to      - recite alquran atleast 1 juzuk per month and i want to make continuously charity by sedeqah at least RM1 per month and many more
        
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All this iltizam are combination of ASK -Attitude, Skills and Knowledge.

In order to achieved all this aims, i was created new motto that can be simplified as 3I - IQRA, ITQAN and ISTIQAMAH

IQRA -READ .... source of knowledge

ITQAN -FOCUS or DILIGENT .... Do the best of everything you do 

ISTIQAMAH -DISCIPLINE or RESOLUTE ...Don't just " Hangat-hangat tahi ayam"

Although many things i'm not fulfill in year 2011 but thanks to Allah for all happiness that i got especially the memories with my lovely family and friends...
Indeed i love u all...
We are together because Allah determine it..
Hopefully we will be together untill jannah...InsyaAllah...Amiin

p/s : Alhamdulillah, neutralize (^^,) (>,<)

Cuti itu Indah

Alhamdulillah...
Syukran ya Allah, di kurniakan aku masa untuk ak bersama keluarga ku yang tercinta...
Kualiti itu lebih penting berbanding kuantiti...
dan 3 hari aku berada di rumah adalah masa yang terindah...
suasana yang sangat tenang, aman dan gembira....
Aku bersyukur ya Allah dengan rahmatMu...

23 dis 2011 - Mission imposible @ tv3 with my bros...
24 dis 2011 - Nasi lemak @ Port Dickson
25 dis 2011 - Badminton pukul angin =P
26 dis 2011 - Siakap stim, udang butter

mencari tempat berteduh

Bola pengikat kasih sayang

4 tona warna alam yang indah

Bunga liar di belakang rumah

Rezeki kelapa melimpah

Bunga liar sebelum di mesin oleh abah

Rajin kan my brothers ni...

cube carik mane shuttle nyer

Masa untuk berehat telah tamat Aisyah...
You already paused it....
Now, work again... and again...
Read....again...again n again...
write...write and write...
Nawaitu lillahi taala...
REFRESH....InsyaAllah with better performance...


p/s: sempat lak aku bace novel " Mungkinkah Milikku" karya Rahul Iskandar yang x tau siapa empunyanye tertinggal kat umah aku....hehe...sronok2!... sebab da lame kot x bace novel.... well,tetibe aku rase cite tu byk kaitannyer plak ngan sekeliling aku...hakhak...terbawak2 =P